The question, posed by my Dad during a visit on Saturday, "Are you happy to be back in America?". At the time Noodle answered with a resounding "YES", Goose looked uncertain and I - totally emotionally and physically leveled by a week of sorting and packing up my Mama's house - mumbled "Yes, I think".
But the answer is "Yes", yes, I am glad to be back in America. Surreal as it is. I'm glad to be home.
We left Indonesia June 23 and spent a fun, fun week in Hanoi (photos to come). Arrived at LAX June 30 and then on to Ohio. Once there we fell headlong into a frenzy of getting my parent's house ready for sale. Lots and lots and lots of stuff to sort through. It was hard. Very hard. A long week of work punctuated by stories evoked by things found, one niece's beautiful wedding, another niece's head-banging rock concert (oh yeah, y'all that girl is a rock star), being in the presence of my favorite Aunt, after whom my Goose is named, freak-out trips to the supermarket (ye gads! things are expensive here), late evening talks on my brother's back porch watching my girls chase fire-flies, July 4th fireworks, plenty of good food, more than a few tears and a goodly measure of soul-cleansing laughter ( I think my brother's family particularly enjoyed our impromptu rendition of "How Much Is That Doggie in the Window" prompted by the discovery of our childhood 78 of the same.)
By Saturday last the really important stuff was found and released into the care of myself, my sister, my three brothers and the 15 grandchildren. Mom's paintings, Great-Great Grandma Mary Ann's sugar bowl, Great Grandpa John's glass bowl, Great Grandma Sarah's quilt patterns, Grandma Matilda's dishes and the baby clothes, shot-records and even the curl of baby hair (whose hair? we're not sure) that Mom saved in her cedar chest have new homes where they will be cherished, not for their thingness, but for the love and memory they remind us of. Dad took a last walk through his home, sighing, "This is home, I wish I could be here", before returning to the Assisted Living where he now lives.
Yes, Daddy, this is home. And we are happy to be here. Though we too miss Mom so much it some times feels impossible to breathe. Yes.
There's still a pile of work to be done at my parent's house, but on Saturday we turned to our own house, our own stuff and our own pile of work. My sister and brother and sister-in-law and nieces helped us pull out the mountain of boxes and furniture that equal our worldly goods from another brother's warehouse and Oma's attic into a monster moving truck. Sunday afternoon we slowly motored our way down to North Carolina and our house, oh goodness, our house. The house that we left 4 years ago thinking we'd not be back to, though the housing market had other ideas. We arrived here late Sunday evening. Monday morning Baba recruited some homeless men (thank god for the homeless) to empty the truck into the "big room" and garage and we've been slowly, slowly, slowly getting reacquainted with our stuff - though we keep asking each other "Is this ours? Did we have this before?" and remembering what we loved -the hardwood floors, the sunlight in the library - and what we hated - the kitchen - about our house. We're ruing the disaster left behind by our worthless to the point of being evil and very soon getting not only a piece of mind but also, perhaps some legal action rental agency - broken refrigerator, new plumbing problems, completely over grown yard - and re-connecting with our good, good neighbors who still like us, even after 4 years of having to live next to the house from hell. We have lots of work in front of us. Lots.
But it is all okay. Baba is working on getting a job. Pray, if you are so inclined, that that happens soon. The girls are doing okay - they love their 'new' room and the rediscovered toys and books, but they miss friends in Indonesia. I'm okay. Haven't really had time to think much about actually "being" here. It is all so strange and so familiar. So much has changed here. There are so many white people. And everyone speaks English. It is so odd.
This morning on my way to Starbucks to use the wireless - we haven't figured out how to get it at our house yet - I heard a heat advisory on the local NPR station (NPR in real time, so freaky!). Today it will be 98 degrees with a heat index of 103. People in risk groups are advised to stay indoors. If you have to be out, take lots of breaks and drink plenty of water.
This is how I know, we are not in Indonesia.
And yes, the answer is still yes. I'm happy to be back in America.